Wednesday, October 14, 2009
I miss him
Today was Chase's sixth month birthday, it was kind of hard though, I thought of him all day. One thing came down to feeling sorry for Reese. I thought, Poor Reese, he never got to really say that he had a brother on earth and now he is a big brother. We all got a chance to smile and be proud of ourselves, we all got to hold Chase and Karly got to hold Reese and I did too, and then I got to hold Karly. But Reese didn't get to hold Chase, he got to hold Chase's little finger and tell him to keep fighting, and I think that when Chase heard Reese say that he was happy, he knew his older brother really loved him. Sometimes when I am sad or I miss Chase, I hold the blanket that he had over him, or I read the book my mom made for me from Chase, and I even listen to the song I sang at his funeral. That is all I have to do to think of him even though I don't have to have that stuff to think of him those things help me sometimes. If I was talking to him right now all I want him to know is, "I love you Chase."