Sunday, November 6, 2011

make a wish:

this is a website that I found helpful. Maybe you should try it sometime


Hello again! I am so bad at keeping things consistent! Anyway, I felt like writing at the moment, so here I am. I have started school in a new place. We have moved to Colorado, and it feels, different. We used to be so far away from so many things, where now there is no "nowhere". I was a little unsure right before we moved, because Karly, Reese, Owen and Chase were all born in New Mexico. When we visited New Mexico for a day, we had to sleep at our old house. I was disgusted. I didn't really understand how good we have it at our house right now. I just couldn't believe that our old house was so, old. Anyway, I just haven't appreciated how good we have it. Owen is starting to get on my nerves, but hey, that's what little brothers are for. I just wished Chase was here to annoy me. I miss that, but Reese does not hesitate to fill in. Fall has come to soon, and it is freezing. Sometimes, you are so caught up with life, that you don't even think about slowing down and taking a breath. Sometimes, you may always want the best, and will never stop wanting the next thing. I know I do that all the time. The last few days, I have tried to slow down, and to take a break, and being thankful for the little things in my life that a lot of other people don't have. I can't believe how fortunate I am. Thanksgiving is coming up in a few weeks, and I really want to appreciate the things I just expect. I am taking the gratitude challenge. It is a 21 day challenge challenging you to be grateful for the little things. YOu can find it on Facebook, as far as I've heard. I challenge you to do the gratitude challenge.

Saturday, May 14, 2011

New Life

Hey guys, I'm back! If you follow my Mom's blog, you would know that I have a new baby brother, Owen Chase Pearson. He can make me laugh and cry, and he is cute even when he is mad. I love him and I thank Chase that he is here everyday with me. So, a few nights ago, I had a dream. It started out like this; we were in this star ship thing and we were going to crash land somewhere on Earth. When my family and I got out,(and no, Owen wasn't there) we started to walk around. We were in a building and there were bubblegum rappers and toys all around. We got out of the building and it didn't look like anything I had ever seen. It was all robotic and it was empty. So we started walking until we reached the next town and it was filled with people. We went into a building which turned out to be a hospital, then we started toward the back of the building. In the back, which by the way was a huge dandelion field, was empty, except for a glass box on a stand. I started to look in the box, and suddenly stopped. It was a body. Not just any body, Chase's body. Chase. My heart started pounding and I cried with tears of joy. He was alive. Laughing and smiling, just like Owen. There was one chord, and that chord helped him breathe. Other than that, he was free of any horrible equipment. However, the one chord was so fragile. I never got to hold him, like in my Mom's dreams. Just then though, after I was so happy, Reese started pulling on the chord, I was telling him to stop. He said he was just playing, and I was screaming for him to stop. He gave it one last tug, and in under a second, Chase withered to dust. I screamed and yelled and cried. I couldn't believe it, he was gone. My dream the soon ended. I woke up sweaty and crying. NO. I wouldn't believe it. Reese would never do such a thing. Reese is soooo much different then in that dream. Today, I looked at Chase's picture more closely than I usually do, and I noticed a cut in his hair. It was red and kind of bloody, I started to cry. He looked horrible. Swollen, cuts all over him, messed up hair. I had never thought of him like that. To me, he was some kind of angel, helping me with all my troubles. I thought of him like he had the thrown next to Jesus. But the more I thought about it, the more I realized that he was my little brother, in heaven, as an angel. It's hard without Chase, but I don't think I could live without precious little Owen either