Today the wind has really been gusty. My dad even made me stay inside just because of it. Of course now I know why he made me stay inside because a huge dead tree fell down right in front of our neighbors drive way. But he has two drive ways so he will be all right. The wind might be yucky but I think of it as Chase blowing me kisses. It sometimes makes me a little bit sadder. I know the wind brings everybody's mood to a crappy feeling but I think it is better to try to make memories than crappy feelings. I miss Chase so very much and it is so easy to think of Chase as a beautiful angel up in Heaven. I think my life has changed since then in good and bad ways. Days have gone by so very fast and I miss when I got to see and hold Chase. If I could hold Chase one more time and say one more thing for him to here, all I would say is, "Hey buddy, it's your big sis and I love you so much and I never, ever wanted you to go."Even though I would be crying my heart out I would mean it with all of my heart. Even though it might be hard to tell people who you are, don't be the one who gets lost in the crowd, let people know who you are, tell them how many people are in your family, even the ones who aren't here on earth. That's what I do, and it makes me feel good. But don't forget, make yourself comfortable. Do what makes you feel good. If you do what usually makes you happy, it'll make you feel good. Chase is my youngest brother and I am not going to forget him no matter what. I love him.